48 hours

• Trying to focus on work for more than 20 minutes. I am on edge today, as if soon things may crumble around me. I am a speck of dust. I am insignificant in comparison to everything in the universe. If insignificant things can feel so much, I do not envy significance in the least.
• Remembering is hard, forgetting is harder.
• I want to give blood next Wednesday but I'm scared of doing it alone. 
• No matter how good I try to be, I am polluted and corrupt. I need to take in island air & remember what it felt like to be clean. I miss cleanliness.
• Because you are hurt doesn't mean you have to hurt others. This is a lesson I have yet to learn. 
• Remember to smile, no matter what. Don't drag your dirty laundry out in public. Remember to smile. Remember to smile. 
• Your degree is the most important thing right now, almost more important than your happiness. Focus on your degree and let sadness pass.