Memory

Memory is important. Psychology and neuroscience majors know that memory can be altered based on our current state of being. Memory preservation must be important to humans, whether or not the memories recalled are true or not. We have journals, diaries and written or oral histories as proof that human's are obsessed with the past. Being obsessed with keeping the past alive has downsides, when we become obsessed with an idyllic past that no longer exists. This obsession can also be problematic when we remember the past as totally lacking value - it leaves us nothing to look forward to.



As the end of the year approaches and I grow closer to my sixth month absence from A, I've been brainstorming ways that I can keep memories of us being together fresh in case the stress of separation drives a wedge of tension into the corner of my mind where doubt lives. In my typical lazy fashion, I'm just going to make bullet points of some of the most memorable parts of this year. Although we will both admit we had sort of shaky start, he's become one of the most important parts of my life this year.

• Channel Orange playlists
• Falling asleep while Skyping over Christmas break
• Fun. concert in January
• Being comforted over Organic Chem during J-term
• Feb break 
• Trip to Burlington Japanese restaurant
• Posse Retreat
• Spring Break in NYC - Natural History Museum and going to dinner & a movie & gelato
• Every single Free Friday Film we've been to (even when I asked for us to leave during Django)
• Snuggling and watching Season 1 of Powerpuff Girls & dancing along to the theme song
• Every KDR party we've been to
• Playing Spades (& winning) in the Grille
• Heart Attacks
• Catching up on Game of Thrones
• Face timing my sister
• Making / drinking fake sorrel together
• Showing up to most/all of my Crossroads shifts
• Pretty much just being one of the sweetest, strongest & most amazing people I know

Don't forget what you have. Six months is only a little while.