Trying to motivate this boy to work while I am half-ass-ed-ly working on a paper due in two weeks and perusing the internet for things to entertain me. His allergies have been acting up this week. I have been trying to quell sadness so that I can have all the energy to appreciate the time we have left to spend with each other. I can't really imagine what the next five months will be like until I feel them, but right now I feel confident and happy going into them. For once in my life, my anxieties are not controlling me. I wonder if he has played a part in this mental healing, in that he is the antithesis of my constant worrying. I wonder how five months will be without being able to rest my head on his chest or feel his giant hugs. So far, I am just happy that he's going to be able to experience something as amazing as Japan; I need to remind myself of this repeatedly.
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