I miss him very much, but I am done weeping and feeling terrible. Now, all we can do is live and be happy with this relationship until he comes back. I'm trying to stay in touch with him as much as possible. I'm sure the most difficult part is yet to come. For now, I'm working on making day-to-day life easy on myself and enjoying the time I have by myself. I can't change my circumstances right now, so I'm doing my best to wait.
Coping is a very strange process for me so I'm doing the best that I can. Even if right now we're both in the "NY" time zone, knowing what time it is when he's in SF or in Tokyo will help me so I have these little clocks on my Macbook's dashboard.
Time is strange. The concept of time has consumed my thoughts these past few days - a mix of thinking about Andrew, watching Doctor Who, Star Trek and reading 1Q84 and poetry to go along with it has me wondering about the passage of time. This is normal I suppose.
Besides trying to compromise rationality with my need to obsess over time, I am trying to stay away from negativity and find ways to think positively about being in a long distance relationship. Of course, I'm using the internet for research which has it's fair share of negativity. Maybe I'll report back on my findings later, but only if I can keep a clear enough head to write neutrally. I'm limiting my days of depressive blogging. Sadness is alright, but it is no longer integrated into every piece of my expression.
Coping is a very strange process for me so I'm doing the best that I can. Even if right now we're both in the "NY" time zone, knowing what time it is when he's in SF or in Tokyo will help me so I have these little clocks on my Macbook's dashboard.
Time is strange. The concept of time has consumed my thoughts these past few days - a mix of thinking about Andrew, watching Doctor Who, Star Trek and reading 1Q84 and poetry to go along with it has me wondering about the passage of time. This is normal I suppose.
Besides trying to compromise rationality with my need to obsess over time, I am trying to stay away from negativity and find ways to think positively about being in a long distance relationship. Of course, I'm using the internet for research which has it's fair share of negativity. Maybe I'll report back on my findings later, but only if I can keep a clear enough head to write neutrally. I'm limiting my days of depressive blogging. Sadness is alright, but it is no longer integrated into every piece of my expression.
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